Went to AA again tonight - wow a marked contrast from Tuesday's meeting.

First of all I had to face my fear as my sponsor's partner was there and I've not spoken to my sponsor for a long time. Secondly I shared a little bit about my relapse and how I'd felt going back on Tuesday - it was a much busier meeting than Tuesday and there were some very hard hitting shares after mine telling me in no uncertain terms that this disease is a killer and that I 'just need to fucking do it' and accept that I can't drink.

I surprised myself by taking it well - no resentments after the first few minutes as far as I can tell. My sponsor collected her partner from the meeting so I went out with him to see her. I shared with her that I thought I needed a local sponsor and she agreed - she lives over an hour away now and I want someone nearby I can go to see regularly.

We agreed to talk on the phone over the weekend.